Friday, September 5, 2008

Rock On

I watched Rock On yesterday. Another blockbuster by Farhan Akhtar. The movie is good, but it has touched something inside me. I am not a rockstar or a hard core rock fan. I like listening to rock though. But thats not the reason for this movie to become special for me.

Its because, I was seeing myself in Farhan, while i was watching the movie. But, what is common between me and Farhan? I have been thinking about it. And I just realized that probably I am also living a half-life. A half-life by not doing what I am best at and always wanted to do. I had seen a dream in young age, unfortunately, it didn't turn into reality. I wish life gives me another chance, like it gave to Farhan in the movie, a chance to fulfill my dream. And I promise, this time I wont let it go.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Coming Back to Life

I was on sabbatical which lasted almost a year. One takes a sabbatical typically to merely take a break from work to fulfil some goal. It would mean any extended absence in the career of an individual and almost similar happened with me. Though, it wasnt unpaid. The goal in my case was to explore the opportunity that god gave me - a very lovely, friendly and charming relationship with the love of my life. I had dreamed of a wedding of elaborate elegance; a place filled with flowers and friends. I used to
ask myself what kind of wedding I wish for; and one fine day I realised it to be the one that will make her my wife.

It was a high and holy state of mind where I began to learn how to love and realised how it can become the creator of life. I got so much involved that i stopped thinking about everything else, my career, my friends, my work. And thats the reason I am calling it my sabbatical period.

Now, after a year, I am coming back to life, feeling completely fresh, with double energy and with different prespective. I tried pulling up old strings, burned myself straight into the shining sun. As a result, once again, I am lost into the world fighting for survival, sustenance and success in life. I have thrown myself into a lot of things: started a new team in my company and expecting a promotion in October, looking for buying a house, thinking of pursuing an MBA from some foreign university and what more?

All these activities are very demanding and taking all my time. Lot of decisions that I have to take in next few months which will govern the future I will be creating for myself. Probably, I like to see myself in such situation and test how I am able to come out of it successfully with the sense of accomplishment.

The difference is that I am not alone this time. I have someone who trusts me in whatever I am doing, helps me with all the situations I am going through, and promised that she will be there in all the good and bad times throught my life. And that is making a huge difference.